the path to recovery

When you go for acupuncture, at least the place I went, you have to fill out an extensive form as to every minor ailment you have and other random questions. One of them asks "Which of these emotions do you feel in a day? Joy, Anxiety, Grief, Anger, Fear, Sadness" etc.... I don't understand why that is important, and furthermore what is normal? I checked all of them.

I immediately went into a deep meditative state, and after about 10 minutes, I felt a rush of energy and opened my eyes. I tried to move my hand and couldn't. She said that was normal, to feel 'pinned down'.

I've been twice now, and I really like it. I feel aligned. Later in the day my ankle aches where its broken, but overall I think it's helping.

I have gotten really good on my one leg. I can turn 360 degrees just by manipulating my toes. I'm sure that will come in handy sometime. I am also finding new uses for the crutches. I swing open doors, and then jam my crutch in like a door stopper. I can also move sideways.

The other day this woman said to me, "I feel your pain" I noticed she was walking on a sort of cast. I asked if it was an 'air cast' she didn't really know. What disturbed me was that she was moving slower than I was. I can get a good pace going with these puppies, but she was moving at a snail's pace. I always kind of assumed that when I could put weight on it that I would limp around pretty good, but I now realize that 'putting weight on it' is the small beginnings of a still longer journey of training my body to walk. My friend Veena said that when she had knee surgery, they told her never to limp, because the body learns to move like that and everything goes out of balance. You must try to walk normally with equal weight, but ever so slowly.

I am nervous about beginning work next week. I go to Vancouver Island a week today to begin 3 weeks of school improv shows. I a short tour in the fall... a teacher would say "Put your hands together for Vancouver TheatreSports League!" And we would all run out of the equipment room and runa round the gym before landing in front of our table. Now the other will run and I will slowly hobble out behind them. And some of these gyms are huge.

I fly to Calgary this morning to get more x-rays, pick up my car, visit my girlfriend in Edmonton, and get a new cast. The one I can start putting weight on. And drive the 11 hours back to Vancouver.